Wednesday, July 30, 2008

A cool meme ( A couple swear words)

1. My uncle once: Disappeared for a month flying wherever his heart took him that day

2. Never in my life: Would I hurt another the way I have been hurt in my life!

3. When I was five: Life was anything but normal but at my grandparents I fell asleep with strawberries in my pockets ;)

4. High School was: Something I had to quit because I had to work about 60 hours a week to afford my apartment and survive

5. I will never forget losing: my son and daughter

6. I once met: Johnny Gil at a party

7. There’s this person I know who: invented roller blades at 18 years old and sold the patent for 4 million dollars! And spent it all in just over a year and big ouch now that roller blades are worth FAR more than the 4 mill he received for them. We went to school with him

8. Once, at a bar: I kissed the bouncer with a tongue ring because I was curious what it felt like lol

9. By noon, I’m usually: Finding my happy self, I am NOT a morning person

10. Last night: I made 3 tags and went through a bunch of emails and did some laundry then fell asleep watching License to Wed

11. If I only had: The answer for my son to live a more normal life..........

12. Next time I go to church: I will pray

13. What worries me most: My kids being safe

14. When I turn my head left, I see: Aquafina wild berry water and my stair railing

15. When I turn my head right, I see: My hubby's computer and desk

16. You know I’m lying when: Um, hmmmm, I guess I would not be able to look you in your eyes?

17. What I miss most about the eighties: Surely not the big hair! That was a really rough decade so honestly not much

18. If I were a character in Shakespeare, I’d be: Let me get back to you on this one ;)

19. By this time next year: I hope to be in my dream house I plan to grow old in

20. A better name for me would be: Shortie or QIB (My MIL gave me that name) Quiet Indian Bitch

21. I have a hard time understanding: ignorance, people's judgemental ways, people who ALWAYS have a story to tell when you tell them something (Example.....My head hurts I say....They say "Oh that is nothing, my head hurts, my neck hurts, blah blah blah!"), and people who think it is just to much for them to take even 5 minutes out of each of their days to help someone else

  22. If I ever go back to school: I would go to be an interior decorator for sure

23. You know I like you if: I hug you lol

24. If I ever won an award, the first person Id thank would be: my hubby for all he does in our life to be an equal part of raising our son and to my brother for being one of the best friends in the world a sister could have

25. Take my advice, never: Judge another unless you have walked a mile in theirshoes

26. My ideal breakfast is: My mush I make.... It is hashbrowns, sausage, cheese, eggs, pretty much whatever I toss into the pan and make. Everyone in my house loves it. Otherwise fruit

27. A song I love, but do not have is: Amazing Grace

28: If you visit my hometown, I suggest: I am from a town called Bertha with about 400 people and honestly I would suggest to just keep on driving if you blink you might just might miss it!! lmao

29. Why won’t people: Help another in need?

31. If you spend the night at my house: We will have a blast, you will get a good meal, some laughs, some sort of game playing, karaoke or something like that

31. I’d stop my wedding for: I stopped my wedding when I went in labor 3 months early with my son

32. The world could do without: All the assholes! And the people who don't signal anymore driving because they are to busy on the cell, or doing their makeup, or shaving, or reading.......

33. I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:  Ewwww I guess have the same cockroach crawling on me

34. My favorite blonde is: My daughter (ask me about redheads and I have two in mind ;)

35. Paper clips are more useful than: I don't use paper clips

36. If I do anything well, it’s: being a true friend, and real compassionate person, and being a mother (Well I try my very hardest to do the very best I can)



Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Good karma???



Hi everyone. The last few months have been so crazy around here! I told you all that my truck broke down on the first of this month. The day that it broke down I had went to get a money order to send my daughter's camp fee in. I needed the remaining balance so $250.00. The girl working there that day accidently gave me a money order for $500.00. I noticed and we went right back into the store and I gave the money order back. She thanked me many times, and told me she probably would have lost her job over a $250.00 error. It was the right thing to do so I did it, period. There was never a thought in my head to keep the extra money. Well an hour later my truck fell apart!

A couple days ago my hubby took my son with him up north 4 hours away to pick up our truck which was fixed. The day before we had been at the beach all day and my son swallowed a bunch of lake water. The evening they got up to my hubby's best friends house/my cousin/son's god papi, Josh got sick. Really sick. By the next day when they were supposed to head home my hubby called me and said "We have a big problem". He said that Josh was wretching badly, bad enough he was having a hard time catching his breath. Josh had a surgery done almost 9 years ago called a Nissan Fundoplication. They wrapped his Esophogus around his stomach to stop the GERD/Reflux he had. My hubby was afraid that the Nissan had burst and they were 4 hours away. We called his GI doc here in the cities and then also his ped doc and were told he needed to be soon before 4 hours. So hubby had to take him to a small rinky dink little place up north. They ran a bunch of tests and seem to believe his Nissan is still in tact.

BUT when hubby talked to Children's down here where my son has spent at least a year total admitted. They told him ALL of my son's records are missing????? WTF did they go? He has went to that hospital since he was a newborn for everything except his cranial stuff which his team of surgeons in Washington DC take care of. So tell me how it is that I have about 5 files FULL of bills and statements and letters to and from certain doctors that Children's Hospital cannot find one single record of Josh?? We had an episode happen there years back that the head of the hospital came to us and asked "Are you looking for a financial settlement?". We told her no we just wanted to know that the neglect from there hospital staff didn't cause any permanent damage. We are now wondering if his records were destroyed after that (or maybe I should say convienently disappeared).

So in the end Josh and hubby made it home at midnight last night and he is ok. He is sick and it will pass.

Last night my daughter and I had the scariest thing happen! Around 9 last night after being at the beach again all day long and running home to change out of swimsuits and eat we ran to Walgreen's to drop off her film from camp. She saw some of the cutest school supplies and they were having a buy one get one free sale. Can't beat that! So we got a bunch of stuff there. Well we got home and she asked "mom, where is my pencil sharpener?".  I said it has to be there somewhere, we looked at the reciept and they never charged us for it. She realized she had stuck it in her pocket and on principle AGAIN because it was the right thing to do I drove her back up there a little after 10 to pay for the sharpener. We pulled in, the cashier sort of laughed and thanked us for coming back. When we pulled in we walked in the store and went straight to the register. There was a cop standing the cosmetic counter with the nighttime store manager. We got in line. It was me, my daughter next to me and then this middle aged man got in line behind us. I thought nothing of it. We payed and left to come home. I was turning left to get onto the main road to get home and this truck (the man from Walgreen's) was in the right lane and turning right. He looked into my truck and knew it was just the two of us in the truck. He let me turn left and switched lanes and turned our direction. Still didn't think much of it. We live about 5 miles from the store, but there is bunch of turns to get into our place. By the third turn I was really watching this guy because I could tell he had no idea where he was going and was going the same way we were. I didn't say anything. Once in our neighborhood we have 5 short turns to actually get into our unit. Once we were on the street our driveways are on I KNEW this man was following us. I then told my daughter to roll her window up and I locked the doors. I did NOT want to turn into our house area so he could block us in because we live on a dead end. So I did a Uturn on the street. He did a uturn and proceeded for almost an hour to follow us. He parked a couple times and I called my brother right after I did the uturn and told him we were being followed. He said stay in your car and don't stop driving I am on my way down. I considered calling the police but after about 40 minutes I lost this guy and have no idea where he went. I knew he was around here somewhere so when my brother and his roommate got here he escorted us into my place and we locked everything up. He then drove around my neighborhood for awhile. My hubby got home about 40 minutes later.

My hubby got home and we told him what happened and he called my brother to thank him for coming so quick and to see if he saw him anywhere. So he wanted us to run back up to the Walgreens to see if the store could show us a video picture of this man who followed us. I assumed he wanted the truck I was driving.  I found out differently at around 2 am and my god was that scary! My hubby went into the store and talked to the manager who knew which man he was talking about right away because he was acting "odd" while she was talking to the police man about a seperate issue. WELL while my hubby was in the store talking to the manager I decided to drive our truck right across the parking lot to wash all the bugs off the windshield and my truck died AGAIN 30 minutes after he got home from picking it up!

The manager told hubby she would piece together the video of this man from the time he walked into the store til he left and followed me and my daughter. He was sort of lingering around the store I guess for a bit before we walked in and when we walked in he went and bought a box of condoms and followed us out and home. So my idea that he was just wanted my sister's truck was obviously wrong. Thank god I pay attention and realized he was following us because god only knows what would have happened if I just pulled into our garage and would have been cornered. Needless to say the police made a CD of the images of this man "lingering" and then following us out of the store and also printed a reciept for the report to show he had indeed bought a box of condoms. The police seem to think he would do something like thatso his sperm was not tracable or something like that. I was freaked out to say the least, and so was my daughter! We are safe and paying very close attention now when we leave the house. He never did see exactly which unit we lived in, just the area we are in. We are moving on Saturday back to the district my kids went to school at last year.

It is a crazy world and TWO times I did "the right thing" something terrible happened. I believe in doing the right thing no matter what but man come on god a little break now and then??? So now my truck sits dead again after spending 700.00 on a rental car for two weeks, then borrowing my sisters truck, and 650.00 to fix the truck for it to die within an hour of getting home.

For the last couple weeks we have been meeting my brother, sister, one day hubby's mom and sis to BBQ, fish, play volleyball, swim, and just spend some good quality time together many days a week. We have all been having a blast. Yesterday my brother brought his jetski down and his kids were with him. We all layed on the beach for a few hours and chatted and laughed and swam. We then decided to rent two paddle boats and meet my brother and niece in the middle of lake. My daughter Ray and my nephew rode with me in a paddle boat and my sister and her friend rode in the other one. We crossed the lake and hooked the paddleboats together and everyone jumped in the middle of the lake and swam. My brother even came and tied his jetski to us and jumped in. He took my daughter for a ride also. We had so much fun. Well my sister and her friend decided to take his jetski out for a ride themselves and hit a wave going 50 MPH and got tossed about 20 feet off the jetski. My sister sprained her finger and felt like she couldn't breath. They both got the wind knocked out of them but are ok other than being pretty sore from hitting the water. Her friend grabbed her life jacket and held onto it while my sister tried to catch her breath. Then they had to swim about 40 feet to get back on the jetski and bring it back to shore. I am thinking next time she will slow down a bit. I am so glad they were ok!

Today we met my brother and sister and were going to go fish off the paddleboats lol! We got there and it was to windy so they were not letting people rent them. We walked aways down a path and fished off a dock. My sister and I caughta TON of baby fish. Hubby and brother only caught like one each in a 3 hours period. They kept trying to steal our spot on the dock lol. I also caught a really small large mouth bass.

My daughter had  a BLAST at camp last week! I left early thank god to pick her up Friday morning to be there at noon. I got stuck on 35W going no more than 20 miles an hour for almost 50 miles. I pulled into the closing prayer/song ceremony 2 minutes after they started. She wants to do the teepees next year also.

My daughter Alexis spent the week here while Ray was at camp and her and I spent some great quality time together. My hubby took off to stay at his best friends for a few days to give us some alone time. That was awesome of him. He knew we needed it. One day we picked up Chipolte for lunch and brought it to them and ate there then when we were headed home to wait out sitting in rush hour for an hour we went to Lake Calhoun in Minneapolis. Lex, Josh and I parked and walked on the beach. Aquatennial Day's had been that weekend and there was a sand castle contest and the big castles were still on the beach so we walked and talked and looked at them. Then Josh decided to fall into the water and soak his shorts and Tshirt so we just let him swim and let him ride home naked lol.

We have all gotten so much color in the last couple weeks and we are having a blast! The day my MIL & SIL met us at the lake here near us we BBQ hamburgers and swam and tried you see I said TRIED to play volleyball in the sand. We all laughed so hard but we all get a A for effort lol. Everyone but me fell and got road rash on there knees. Then we all went down to get in the water to cool off because it has been scorching hot here in MN and my SIL was sitting in the water and got bit on the butt by a fish. I bet the people across the lake heard her scream :)

Well that's it for tonight. I hope everyone is having a great week.

Love and Hugs, Robyn


HOW DO YOU DECIDE WHO TO MARRY? (written by kids)

You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like, if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming.
-- Alan, age 10

No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're stuck with.
-- Kristen, age 10


Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then.
-- Camille, age 10


You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids.
-- Derrick, age 8

Both don't want any more kids.

-- Lori, age 8


Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know each other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough.

-- Lynnette, age 8
(isn't she a treasure)

On the first date, they just tell each other lies and that Usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date.

-- Martin, age 10


I'd run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns.
-- Craig, age 9


When they're rich.
-- Pam, age 7

The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn't want to mess with that.

- - Curt, age 7

The rule goes like this: If you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do.
-- Howard, age 8


It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need someone to clean up after them.
-- Anita, age 9
(bless you child)


There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there?
-- Kelvin, age 8

And the #1 Favorite is........

Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a dump truck.
-- Ricky, age 10

Monday, July 21, 2008

My favorite shoes and hair color and cell phone (Wanna play along?)

I was bored in the garage and took some random pictures lol. I would love to see your favorite summer shoes and a snap of your hair color and see what cell phone you have if you want to share ;) Look at how frizzy my hair looks (Gotta love MN and the wonderful humidity!)

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This picture is dark but I got my nails done and the actual acrylic has glitter in it. They are not painted at all so I wanted to show you the glitter and had to take it dark :)


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Part 2 of pics

Ray's campsite........ And Joshie checking it out ;)


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Photo entry

Hi everyone. Last weekend we went to our Pow Wow, I took some pictures but mostly of my girls not the dancers like I did last year. The girls bought my hubby the coolest blanket for his birthday from there. It has bears, and wolves on it and is SO soft and warm.

Friday was my hubbies birthday and he had gotten a terrible toothache 2 days before. We got him on some antibiotic's and he was better by his birthday but then I woke up the morning of his birthday with a TERRIBLE abcessed tooth! I went to my doctors and they gave me some antibiotics and some pain pills for the weekend. My poor hubby had the lamest birthday! I was crawling out of my skin in pain until the pills started working. My left side of my face was so swollen! Thank goodness the infection has gotten better now and the swelling has went down because I have a dentist apptointment in an hour and a half and they will hopefully be able to fix the tooth so that doesn't happen again. I told hubby he started  a trend! First him, then me, then his best friend (my cousin, my sons godfather) called Saturday night at 1AM dying because his tooth had cracked, then my daughter came home from her dad's Sunday and she had a cracked tooth. We DO brush our teeth many times a day and floss and all that good stuff I swear!! lol

Yesterday we spent about 9 hours in the car, we dropped my daughter Rayanna off for her camp at this awesome Christian Camp for the week. She signed up for the Teepee session this year and will share the teepee with 7 other girls and there is also another teepee for 8 boys. They all prepare the meals together as a group, they do eveything from this little campsite that is set up specifically for the Teepees. There is also a treehouse site that they have all their challenges against all week long. So we left the cities to head down to the camp and arrived about 30 minutes early because you stand in line way less if your early. We got all her stuff in the trailer and walked with her and Josh to the teepee site to check it out. She is camping lol! My god it was hot out and the bugs for being the middle afternoon were crazy! Thank goodness we bought her a big can of bug spray!! I hope she is having a blast! I will post the pictures that I took at the end of the entry. We hung out there for about an hour and then at campers welcome time I brought her to her group and counselor and we headed off another almost 2 hours to pick up my daughter Lexi who is spending the week here. On the way home we stopped at Olive Garden and had dinner.

I think that alerts are not working (BIG SURPRISE!! lol) because even on my tag journal only a few people have stopped by.

Speaking of my hubby, after he left that night he actually showed up back home at 3:30 AM and just held me. Life has been so hard lately! Well honestly it is always hard but since that stuff happened at my moms it has been really stressful!

I wanted to tell everyone who commented on my LONGGG entry about my past, thanks for the comments! I know some said it sounded like a horror movie. You know what is strange to me, I have just lived life one day at a time and always swore to myself to do things differently when I became a mother. There is NOTHING I wouldn't do to protect my kids and to give them constant love and stability every day of their lives. To me because it is the only life I have known it was all I knew as life. I cannot say that I have never been envious of what some would call the typical all american family, yet on the same note through all the hurt and abuse my family meaning my mom, and siblings have always been my life. Which is why I was so hurt and felt so betrayed that my mother could hurt my kids and I the way she did. To me there is no excuse, it is unexcusable. I guess all these years later I just kept putting one foot in front of the other and kept going. There have been times I just wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out but it truly has never been an option. Years ago I got past what my dad did to me. I have never forgotten, I just moved on because I had to in order for me to be ok as a grown up. I am more angry at my father for being a coward. I am angry that as an adult when I started dealing with the hurt and abuse he wasn't here for me to confront.

Am I scarred? Sure I am in many ways. But I have decided that I am the one that can break the cycle and I am the one who can make sure my kids never have to deal with what I had to deal with my whole childhood and adult years. I am the the only one with the power to protect them, and love them the way that children deserve to be loved. Even if that means walking away from the only family I have ever known to make sure my kids never have to see how mean and nasty real life can be. Everyone deals with forms of abuse differently and I have never (well maybe not never) let myself be a victim. I cannot change the things that have happened to me but do know that they have made me one of the most loving, caring and compassionate people you could ever meet. I have chose to not let it make me a bitter, uncaring person.

Well I should end this now and post the pictures and get ready to go to the dentist. I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Love & Hugs, Robyn

Pics from the Pow Wow........My superstars lol


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That boy liked them lol!
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Ne here is the stand we got Katie's whistles at ;)
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You cannot read it but the girls and I all got these hoodies from a company called "American Indian Beauty Clothing Company, Rez Dog clothing co." they say...... "I am an Indian woman, I am strong, I am soft, I am the Indian experience. My people have suffered hardships beyond what I can imagine, But they survived and persevered. And so will I. Never underestimate the power of an Indian woman!

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Doesn't he look like a future stick up kid?? lmao he was so cute!
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I was trying to get pics of her beads
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My brother ( HE has been SOBER for just over 3 weeks!! Go big brother ;)!!!)
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