Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Gibber jabber

Hi everyone it has been awhile since I wrote an entry so I figured I would tonight before I went to bed.

Yesterday we spent 15 hours (with drive time) at my grandma's house going through stuff and taking stuff we wanted, ect. The whole process was sad for me! I brought home some beautiful stuff of hers though that I will keep until I pass and my daughter will take it.

One is a 75 year old Lane cedar chest that is still in mint condition with the original tags in perfect shape still! My grandma used it over the years for two things and two things only, her fabric she collected and her handkerchiefs.  We split the handkerchiefs up between my mom, my sis and I. They smelled like Cedar bigtime!

I honestly never knew how much great stuff my grandma collected! She had a amazing collection of tea cups with the saucer. I took all of them and will keep them to give to my daughter when she gets older. I found out today when a very good friend of ours came over who happens to be a avid collector of antiques that these tea sets are very rare and have not been made for years! He also told me that similar cedar chests at auctions that were actually in way worst shape than my grandma's went for 5000-7000 dollars!

It will never leave our family it will stay with us forever if I have anything to say about it!  Besides the tea sets I also took a ton of different beautiful pieces of china, on is a piece of depression glass and man is it pretty! I actually will take a few pictures sometime soon and show you.

We have been so busy since before my grandma passed away! I did pick up the phone last week and went as far as dialing her number and realized afterwards "what am I doing?". I used to call her all the time when I was doing dishes and it was just habit. Man what I would give to be able to call her right now and talk for hours like we used to! I miss her so much!

We got a box from the funeral home that was waiting at her house when we got there yesterday with a video memorial that played at her wake,  candles, cards from flowers, ect. The way they did the video was amazing. It was beautiful! We chose 50 photos from her life starting at birth til recent with all the grandkids and they did a wonderful job putting them together! She was a amazing woman!!!

I do not think I ever mentioned she had a twin sister. She is really having a hard time with this. The two of them (I swear I am telling the truth!!lol) never got in one fight in 87 years! They also never lived more than 5 miles away from each and never according to my aunt went a day without talking. She is lost right now. She said she many times has went to pick the phone up to call her.

Other then missing her a ton I am doing pretty good. Life is hectic as ever there is so much going on that I do not have time to go into tonight. But like I always say there is never ever a dull moment in my life!

I reserved two cabins two days ago for the week right after my kids get out of school so we can go relax and hang out on the beach, and fish! My mom will take one cabin and we will take the other.

We also have decided for Christmas this year all of (mom,sister,brother, and all of our partners and kids) us are going to Jamaica. Should be a blast!

I think after losing my grandma that we have all really been enjoying spending more time then usual together just loving each other and helping each other out with all the stresses in our lives together.

My daughter picked her instrument she will be playing next year, she picked the flute. She is all signed up now for summer lessons and we will get her flute the first week of May at her school.

Hubby's mom is down to one more chemo treatment then has a couple weeks off and starts her radiation which will go til July. She is doing great considering all she is going through! She is having all the typical reactions to the chemo but is staying positive and keeping a good attitude about all of it overall! She is another amazing woman so I am not surprised how well she is handling all of this!

Well I think I will end this for tonight and go to bed. I am so tired! My bed is calling me ;)

I hope everyone is doing good! I saw in a alert that Nelishia got married this last weekend! I cannot wait to see pics. For those of you who do not know her she is a beautiful woman who has had a very hard life and finally found a piece of happiness! I am so happy for her and Dirk! I wish the two of them nothing but eternal love and happiness! He found a diamond finding her :) Love you NeNe!!!

Goodnight and Sweet dreams........

Love you and hugs,


Thursday, April 12, 2007

Another year older today

Hi everyone! I turned 32 today. This time of year is a rough time of year so my birthday is full of emotions. 14 years ago today I went into labor with my son Anthony. Tomorrow he would have been 14 and in two days is the day he passed away.

My grandpa also passed away in the Spring, now my grandma has passed away in between the anniversary of my son and grandpa's death. That is alot of losses within a 4 week period of my birthday!

So I always spend these days remembering along with celebrating my birthday. My hubby sent me to get my nails done this afternoon, and when done they gave me a birthday card and present from him. He gave me a beautiful diamond bracelet with X's in gold, and the O's in diamonds. It is very pretty!

He went there earlier in the day and set it up so they would give me the present after they were done with my nails. Since midnight last night has been more hectic then ever, so for him to make me stop and take a little bit of me time was very cool of him!

Last night we had to drive in the ice/snow storm to pick up my sister at midnight. She is still very much so struggling with Postpartum Depression. Then tonight our 17 year old called and got into a fight with a roomate of hers and he got physical with her (she is 6 months pregnant) so we had to drive an hour away to move her out of the house they have been staying at. We just got home from that.

Earlier today I had to go to a meeting with my sister and her therapist. So for my hubby to make me breathe for a minute alone was a godsend! As of tonight it is looking like we are going to be having FIVE more people staying with us for awhile.

There is never a dull moment I tell ya that.

Well I am going to end this for tonight and will update again sometime soon! I hope everyone is doing well!

Love & Hugs,


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Monday, April 9, 2007

Just saying hi

Hi everyone just checking in. Last week 10 of us in my family decided to get in two cars and just get on the road. We ended up going to Oklahoma City and had a great time. We all really needed to just spend some good time together and clear our minds.

We ate tons of good food, shopped a ton, went to this awesome gokart place, and just stopped wherever we wanted when we wanted. On our way home we stayed the night in Kansas City at this beautiful hotel that had recently updated the suites.

While in Oklahoma we got all the thank you cards filled out from my grandma's funeral. Over a hundred total we did. Man did my hand hurt when we were done. I didn't realize how hard that part was going to be. Some people were more personal to us then others and finding the proper words to write was hard.

My kids went back to school today from Spring Break. WHEW! lol

I bought the cutest Dooney & Bourke bag at Macy's in OK. I will take a picture of it later and post it. My mom decided she loved it and stopped and bought her own.

I am doing good, I am just going with the motions of the day. A couple days ago I did break down and cry in my car again (That is my venting place because my kids are not around) but otherwise I am ok.

I am happy for my grandma that she is in a better place, and that she is no longer suffering! She spent her life dedicated to Jesus and to her she went home! That is where she lived her whole life to end up.

Well that's it for tonight. HAPPY BELATED EASTER to everyone! I hope everyone is doing good.......

Love & Hugs,


Sunday, April 1, 2007

Awesome poem to my children

I found this poem on someone's site last night and thought it was awesome! So I wanted to share it with all the mom's and dad's who read my journal.......



I gave you life,
but cannot live it for you.
I can give you directions,
but I cannot be there to lead you.

I can allow you freedom,
but I cannot account for it.
I can teach you right from wrong,
but I cannot decide for you.

I can offer you advice,
but I cannot accept it for you.
I can give you love,
but I cannot force it upon you.

I can teach you to share,
but I cannot make you unselfish.
I can teach you respect,
but I cannot force you to show honor.

I can advise you about friends,
but cannot choose them for you.
I can advise you about sex,
but I cannot keep you pure.

I can tell you about drink,
but I can't say "no" for you.
I can warn you about drugs,
but I can't prevent you from using them.

I can tell you about setting goals,
but I can't achieve them for you.
I can teach you about kindness,
but I can't force you to be gracious.

I can pray for you,
but I cannot make you walk with God.
I can tell you how to live,
but I cannot give you eternal life.