Monday, November 27, 2006

Another quick update

Hi everyone I just wanted to do another quick update. My daughter is home now. We will not have the results of the tests, or biopsy's for at least a week. There was really nothing at the hospital being done that cannot be done here at home. I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying that we will get an answer finally as to what is wrong with her, but that it will be something treatable!
Her poor hand is so sore from her IV. They tried 5 times before they found a spot that was good enough to use, and it was right on the bone on inside of her wrist. She was REALLY happy to have it removed, but it is so sore she keeps putting warm clothes on it.
She got put on a liquid diet Thanksgiving morning, I felt so bad she could not eat a good thanksgiving meal! I did have a plate saved for her tho that she ate two days later.
I wish I had more answers to give, but I don't! I woke up this morning AGAIN with my throat so swollen and sore! I think I'm so wore out that I probably am more quick to get sick. I will be going for another strep test this afternoon.
We got some terrible news about 2 hours ago. Hubby is up north til tonight and just called me to let me know the results of his mothers biopsy she had done last week. She has Breast Cancer. It is devestating to us because she has no medical insurance! Wednesday she will go in for her treatment options, and we will go from there! This woman is amazing and I have to believe that we will come up with something for her to be able to get the required treatment she needs! I love her equally as I do my own mother! She is my confidant in all aspects of life! So once again I am asking for any prayer requests and as many as possible here in Jland! Her name is Wendy and I sure would appreciate it! Prayer works miracles I do know first hand!
The amount of responses I got here in my journal for my daughter was amazing! You guys are all amazing! I plan to tell everyone thank you but I just do not have the time to do that right now. Everyone new who came to visit....I will be coming to your journals and saying hi when I have the time!
I will end this for now and update again when I am able to give more answers.
I love you and hugs,
P.S. My daughter LOVED all the comments left for her in my last 2 thank you again! It made her smile ;)

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Quick update

Today my daughter had a endoscopy and colonoscopy done. At the same time they also did a biospy on her stomach, liver, colon, and esophagus. We will not have any of the results back from them for at least a week. Every test we have done to see what could possibly be wrong with her has came back negative until yesterday evening when the results from her stool sample came back.
They said her white blood cell count was very high inside of her colon. But not real sure what is causing that. There is ALOT of unanswered questions right now. This may not even make sense to any of you. I just wanted to give a quick update.
The amount of comments I got in the last few days is absolutely amazing! I am going to print them out and show them to my daughter ;) Lisa and Emily you two are the sweetest women for the prayer requests on your journals! Thank you it means more to me than you could possible know! I will update again soon........
HUGS and Love you and Thank you!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Please pray for my daughter!

Hi just a quick update since I have been away again. My daughter is still very sick! She was admited to Childrens Hospital 2 days ago. I just came home tonight. I have slept 2 hours in the last two days :(
Hubby made me go home tonight and I will go back in the morning. I got sick last night also, but when your a mom you grin and bear it.
They gave Rayanna Morphine last night for her pain and she had a bad reaction to it and felt like she could'nt breath and her arms were hurting her. They then gave her Demiral (sp?) and that seemed to finally put her to sleep around 3 AM.
I have nothing to tell right now as to what is wrong with her. Just please keep her in your thoughts and prayers! I will update again when she is discharged and home and I have the time.
Tomorrow we will spend Thanksgiving at the hospital with her, my sister and sister in law will bring us all plates. Then her dad and his g/f will be there in the evening also to spend the night with her.
We had non stop visitors today starting with her dad at 10 this morning, and we had 9 different family members come from then to 9 tonight. She sure got some cute bears and balloons!
I am going to take a shower now and try to get some sleep! I plan on getting up early in the AM and heading back down there with my son.
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! And again please keep my daughter in your prayers!
I love you and hugs!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

You know I was just thinking, I asked you all to send me links if you had written a entry in this last week. I have had a busy week and had a brain fart!
All of your links are in my own journal! DUH lmao........
I could have just checked on my own!

Friday, November 17, 2006

Where is everyone?

I do not think that my alerts are working? Is everyone doing ok? If you have wrote an entry in this last weeks time plzzzzz send me a email and let me know lol

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Finally a real entry!


Your Dreams May be Closer than you think......
If you believe you, you will.
Stay focused on what you want to happen,
and don't lost sight of the goals ahead.
You are never alone when you have
others who believe in you.
Borrow their faith in you if yours
is running low.
When you think you can't take
another step,
someone will help you find a way,
even if they must carry you for
And always remember.......
only by believing in your dreams
will you ever know what you are
capable of achieving.
Only by believing in yourself will
your dreams come true!
So reach down deep inside,
bring them out,
and make them come to life!
Hiya everyone. I have a really cool calendar that has awesome inspirations. It hangs in my kitchen and my kids read them. there are some awesome lessons in life in that thing ;)
Hmm lets see, what has been going on with me? Lets start with my daughter. She is doing better, still not using the bathroom what we would consider normal, but she is on antibiotics and a laxative (which she hates! lol). Gwen you were right about the bladder infection part, she definitely had one. But after being on the med's for 6 days they were not happy with her still not peeing only one time per 30+ hours, which is why they were concerned and had me bring her to Children's Hospital. But the great news is her kidneys are functioning perfectly so that is not the cause of any of these problems.
She also just got her first period last Friday! she is 10! reminded me very quickly how fast she is growing up to get that call from her at school that day! She did awesome thou, we have had that talk and I have explained the whole process to her many times before so she was calm and ok with it.....whew! :)
I posted pictures of my bathroom awhile back and commented that I hated the carpet in there. Carpet does not belong next to a shower and tub! It is gone now, I had it tiled and it looks great!
Last night I painted my dining room. The woman who owned this house before me was older and she TRIED to get really creative in every and I mean every room in this house. But her creative side must not have been flowing the days she painted! room by room I have been updating and making things match, and redoing her paint jobs that were 3 different colors per room, and terrible!
We painted it a dark brown, I was kind of worried about it turned out great! It looks awesome! I am going to be getting a new dining room table and hutch for my dining room. I have a really nice solid oak one now, but I really want a dark set, almost rustic looking to go with all my Native American themed things I have in my one big hutch in there.
I collect Trail of Painted Ponies and have a lot of them, I collect Indiandolls and have quiet a few of them also. I have also over the years traveling and going to pow wows collected just random beautiful things like baskets, figurines, wolves, eagles ect.
I am very proud of the things I have found over the years and love to display them!! The best place to find great stuff is at random pow wows because there is always different stuff you would never find at say Target, Walmart, or a mall.
My sisters baby shower was on Saturday at my brothers house and a lot of family from up north came down for it. It was really fun! I bought her a TON of stuff! She is definitely set for a little bit. She got so many cool and cute things! She is doing ok. I worry about her because her B/F is really a dickhead! (pardon my french!). He calls her names ALL the time. I wanna smack him lol
She is trying hard to do the right thing, and it seems he drags her down. He makes her so unhappy. When she is with me, my mother, or anyone else she is laughing and carefree then when he comes around she is down. But what can I do? absolutely nothing. I can talk to her and hope a little sinks in. I can remind her she has worked very hard to get her life together and she is beautiful and has a ton to offer and that she does not need to deal with his shit. But beyond that it is her life and her choices to make.
He is very insecure, and very controlling. He has to be with her every time she even goes to see my mom. That to me is bull! She is still very young and if she wants to spend a day with her mother he should let her. No man would ever tell me I was not allowed to spend time with my family unless he was there. It does NOT work that way!
So I worry that she is so young now and letting him treat her this way, what is she going to do as she gets older? My daughter spent the night with her about a week ago, and Kate and J were fighting because she wanted to go with my daughterto hang out at my moms house. He turned around and said to my 10 year old in reference to something she said......"Because your aunt is a whore!"...... WTF??? That is not ok ever! I do not ever talk to my kids like that so this young man sure and the hell is not going to!
So if he is willing to talk to my 10 year old like that about her what the hell is he going to do with their baby? Can you tell this is a touchy subject with me? The sailor in me came out more than usual lmao!
After my sisters shower her and the jerk and 5 other people came back to my house and we played games and karaoke all night. Everyone spent the night because we were up so late. We had a blast. We play Mexican dominoes for like 3 hours that game is so fun!
We went over to our daughters place last night to pick up all of our painting stuff. It stunk SO bad in there! I went over there last month and put the whole house together for them and I think it is safe to say they have not done one thing in there since.  It's funny her B/F comes over here and calls more than she does! She does not call hardly ever and when she does it is because she needs money or to use our puters or washer and dryer. I guess that is the way it goes tho huh? But that doesn't mean I have to like it!
My hubby is going up north to hang out with the boys for a few days today. He will be gone til this weekend. I told him last night to go. He said ok, so that's that ;)
You know I have been thinking a lot about "me" lately and have came to a point in my life as a woman and a mother, that I am trully fearless of ever having to do it all alone! I think back to my 20's and I was scared to death! I'm not anymore. It is a very calming feeling to lose that fear. It feels great as a woman to know without a doubt that I will ALWAYS be ok, I will always have the strength I need to do whatever it is that needs to be done.
Well I will end this now it got really long. And think I was just getting started!! I will try to update more often again. I hope everyone is having a great day!
I love you and hugs!!!
one last picture of my daughter as a baby. I love this picture of her!


Friday, November 10, 2006

Quick update

Just wanted to let you all know I am alive. My daughter has some unanswered medical issues going on, we have been to urgent care and Children's Hospital ER a total of 15 hours in the last 5 days. I will explain more in detail when I have more time. The first thing that concerned me was the fact that for the last 9 days she has only peed a total of 6 times, which obviously means that she has went three whole days without going at all. That is not normal!
At Children's last night they drained her bladder, and the amount that they drained she should have felt like she had to pee, but she didn't.
There is more I will write a real entry as soon as I can. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers that whatever it is that is going on is nothing to serious!
Love you all and hugs,
It SNOWED here today, enough to make a nice mess to drive in!! It was 72 degrees two days ago, now it is 30. WTF? I am thinking half of Minnesotans are going to be sick very soon!

Sunday, November 5, 2006

A bit better today

Thank you very much for the comments.  I am still very sick but the swelling is going down! I actually managed to eat half a bowl of soup yesterday afternoon even tho it did make my throat bleed (because it was so swollen) and late last night I drank a malt.  I am about 50% better. But man oh  man did this Strep kick my ass! I am considering trying to get my tonsils taken out because I flat out do not have the time or energy to be this sick again with something that I thought you weren't even supposed to get as an adult anymore and sure the hell not at this level!
I have been totally out of commission since last Wednesday! My hubby has been great and did the best he can.  But my house is a mess, my washer managed to break a day into me being sick (and EVERYTHING bedding wise, ect needs to be washed),  I am a week behind paying any bills that I usually pay around the first of the month,  I have no groceries in my fridge,  my truck desperately needs a oil change,  I missed both my kids conferences (hubby took them) which is a first ever, my dog needs to be groomed,  my S-Video cable died on my big screen so you can hear it but get no picture, I could go on and on but my point is in a weeks time everything seemed to fall apart so it is a damn good thing I am starting to feel better!
I am not going to push myself I will take it easy for another day or two but I have SO much to catch up on once I am all the way better! My 10 year old has been such a sweetheart! She keeps freezing towels and bringing me a fresh cold one every 3 hours or so to go on my head, throat, or neck. She keeps bringing me thermometer to take my temp, she lays with me and rubs my head, or just lays by me to keep me company and plays on her laptop.  Every time I wake up she asks "How are you feeling mom?".  She is such a angel! I love that little girl so much!
Well that's it for today I just didn't want you all to worry! Your comments are so sweet! I love you all!
Hugs and more to hugs to you,

Saturday, November 4, 2006

So sick!

Hi everyone. Just stopping by quick to let you know I am way behind on everything! I have the WORST case of strep throat I ever knew was possible! I spent 49 hours straight in bed. Then went to Doctors and was given a shot in my butt which as of today 2 days later has done nothing for me! I actually feel worse today then I did then.

My throat is so swollen that there is probably about the size of a straw tip that is actually opened. I can barely drink water. I have not eaten anything in 3 days. I am just hoping I will start getting better soon!

I will catch up with your journals when I am feeling better. I have so many alerts in my mailbox, but I just do not have the energy to read them all. I hope everyone is doing good!