I am still sick but cannot sleep. I was sitting here listening to music and started thinking about my son Anthony. I think I did a entry about him awhile back. He would have been 13 this year and you know that even if you move on from a loss of a child you never ever forget!!
I picture what he would look like if he were here today with me and I imagine all the fun things him and I would do together! The song "One Sweet Day" by Mariah Carey makes me think of him and it was just on my XM channel I listen to all the time!
I made an entry about making him his flowers that I put at his grave this spring but never put a picture when I got home from visiting him so I figured there was no better time then now!
The headstone behind his is my grandpa's. I am going to end this entry for now by just simply saying to my son........
I love you baby boy!! And you are always in my heart!!
I scanned a pic of me and my son. DO NOT mind the jeans lol. I was 18 years old and went into premature labor 4 months early so I wasn't dressed to have a baby! I spent 30+ hours in labor and he was transferred immediately to Childrens Hospital and I of course went with him. I was awake for about 75 hours with NO sleep and delivering him for 36 hours!! Man was I numb and wiped out when I left the hospital without him!
And I was so pale! My body was so tired! My heart hurt so bad!!!